Deviant since Aug 2, 2010 Core Member until Sep 14, 2016, given by Lucain24
some nerd wannabe game dev
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Late in the evening, sun is setting over the mountain range just a few miles away. Neighborhood is quiet. The only sound was the paper in my hand as I looked to it, hand on my forehead. The paper was an explanation of my GPA from the previous semester of college, and I was told that I could not return. My life felt like it was falling apart. I walked down to the basement, and sat in an armchair, contemplating where my life was going to go, as it had seemingly been derailed from all plan, and it was my fault. All the friends I had made at the dorms, the adventures we had through 2009, and that the likelihood I would ever see them again was slim to nothing.
At the same time, I knew the next few years of my life would change everything, and rather than wallow in self-pitty of what seemed to be my future as I knew it crumbling, I decided to take up something that had caught my attention during the school year... in a hope that maybe it would go somewhere, and that I'd meet someone to help me fight my own ghosts into the years ahead.
"I don't know where this is going to take me, or what is going to happen. Maybe someone will like my photography, and maybe I can talk to someone that might understand what I'm going through. I mean... i've done art before, but this feels different somehow.
Afterall, the site seems ok. Deviantart.... what can possibly happen?"
Five years ago. I created my account on a website of creative people in hopes of finding a bit of light in my life where there was very little. I was going to college as a structural engineer, and then everything changed. I turned to a community for answers as to where to go, when everything seemed wrong. I pictured maybe making friends, learning a new hobby, and creating something rather than just sit and work fast-food for years on end.
Never in a million years would I imagine that 5 years later, this is what the username 'DanSyron' would come to mean.
Now it is 2015. And where I once say my life as derailed, I look back and realize that what seemed like a fluke was a gateway to something extraordinary, and what started as a username garnered from a DJ alias with my name tacked onto it, became for me something that has irreversibly changed my life in every way.
So what happened? What caused me to do it? To join? Everyone has a story of fun, friends, art, creation. I don't. Deviantart for me was a leap of faith into something I had no idea about, of curiosity of what such a community could do to bring me out of a crippling depression. When I joined 5 years ago, I was in an environment that was not only incredibly new to me, but incredibly scary. I was surrounded by artists that sculpted dreams, created stories that would break your heart and inspire millions, and characters that could seem so real to you that they'd haunt your dreams at night, and find their way into your notes during class during the day. I however was none of that. I was alone, and simply there to talk to someone to find my center once again. I didn't know how to draw on a computer. Sure I could doodle here and there, and make concept car sketches, but that was from years ago, back when I had inspiration of being an artist in my early teens. But maybe such a hobby might be useful here...
And in that sadness, and that depression, yet in that curiosity... I created Syron.
Syron was nothing more than a manifestation of my own thoughts and while he did start as an incredibly awful roleplay character, he meant something to me then. He was what I felt, what had inspired me before. Where I had been, and where I wanted to go, and was created to mark my own progress through fighting with my own problems. I didn't know what would become of such an idea: a tiny blue fox with crystals jutting out of everywhere for no apparent reason. Would me mean something to me in the future? Would he influence others too?
5 years later, though incredible highs and lows. Depression to near suicidal thoughts, to anger, jealousy, triumph, loss... Syron has changed not only me, but so many others.
In 5 years, my life has changed so much, it's unrecognizable. That leap of faith has taken me from a lurker on a website with nowhere to go, to setting me on a career path, gifting me with the best friends I have ever met, and the girl of my dreams. But it was a long road. 5 years does alot to someone. It changes them. And while the success of Syron for me as a marker of progress was not one forged in happiness (for the most part), everything I've experienced, learned, failed, tried, and stayed awake countless nights for has created something beautiful.
With the outpouring of support for Syron (and me by association) not only have you helped me find the rails to my own life once again, but you've helped me take this:
and turn it into this:
in 5 YEARS
So what does this mean for you (whoever is reading this journal)? Take a look at where you are now, and what you deal with. Your struggles, your pain, depression, anxiety, anger, and realize that in 5 years, if you keep at it, and you get back up after you fail, and just keep going... You can do it. You can change not only your own life to find the light in what seems like an endless sea of hopelessness, but you will change so many peoples lives too. Every person you talk with, every person you say 'Hi' to, every hug you give, every word of encouragement you say, and everyone you pass in the street, or see on here, on deviantart~ you will impact those people, and their lives will never be the same because of you.
And because of you, they'll make it too. because in 5 years... A lot can happen, and a lot can change. You might become a world-class writer You might learn to become an animator You might delve into areas you never would imagine and you might find a friend for the rest of your life
or, like me, Find the answer you were looking for all along.
You might not know where this is going to take you, or what is going to happen. Maybe someone will fall in love with your art, or you. You'll find someone that might understand what you're going through, but maybe you will. And when you do, you'll always look back and say 'why didn't I come here sooner'
you can do it
Afterall, It's Deviantart... what can possibly happen?
Thanks everyone again. This last year has changed the entire equation for me. Not only have we done more animation then we've done in every previous year before it, but 3 large-scale animations, a game, and stuff I'm not even allowed to talk about yet. You've effected me in profound ways that I cannot possibly express enough gratitude for. What's going to happen this year? I honestly don't have an answer to that. -because really anything can and will happen.